The day after we got home from Disneyland mom and I went to Sisters for a celebration of life service. I left Kurt with the kids at home. It is never easy to celebrate the life of ones who leave far too soon. But somehow these little beautiful lives were celebrated. One of my cousins lost two beautiful little girls, identical twins, at 34 weeks. No sense can ever be made from situations like these. I have completely stopped trying. I do still know that my God is good, my God is kind, and my God loves others more than I can ever imagine.
At the service I was amazed. Their daddy is a pastor, and he actually spoke. He did the whole thing. I don't know how, only by the power of God. He wanted to share what God had been teaching him through all of this. I don't know if there was a dry eye there, but he made it through and he did an amazing job. One thing he said was that these precious little girls took a short cut to heaven. Even though we feel short-changed, they are where they have always belonged. As soon as he said this I began to think of the fast pass. In Disneyland, where I had spent the last five days, we liked those fast passes. It was great to get to bypass most of the line to get on the ride in less than 10 minutes. Seeing the envy of those watching you walk right by, standing in line with loud, impatient, overtired and overstimulated children. Other times we did not like the fast pass…those times when we did not have one and we were the ones waiting in the line. We weren't really happy for those who had them, we easily forget that it does take some forethought and sometimes even a line to get one. Rather than being happy for those who have one we become jealous or bitter because we have to wait. It's not fun to wait.
I know this analogy between the two isn't perfect. But it made sense to me. These precious little girls got a fast pass into heaven. How can I be upset about that? They are enjoying life to the full. Happy in Jesus' arms. I don't like to wait. Would I really want them to skip the fast pass and wait in line with the rest of us? For selfish reasons yes, I would. It doesn't seem fair to their parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and everyone who cares that they now have to live life in line without these precious girls. But God gave them a fast pass…so I should not question His choice, but choose instead to somehow rejoice. So much easier said than done. Sooner than later though, this sweet little family will be reunited… and this life will seem like an eternity past.
I know this analogy between the two isn't perfect. But it made sense to me. These precious little girls got a fast pass into heaven. How can I be upset about that? They are enjoying life to the full. Happy in Jesus' arms. I don't like to wait. Would I really want them to skip the fast pass and wait in line with the rest of us? For selfish reasons yes, I would. It doesn't seem fair to their parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and everyone who cares that they now have to live life in line without these precious girls. But God gave them a fast pass…so I should not question His choice, but choose instead to somehow rejoice. So much easier said than done. Sooner than later though, this sweet little family will be reunited… and this life will seem like an eternity past.
